It's Official!

2012...still trying to grasp that fact. Overall, I'm glad because it feels good to be getting a fresh start. Have you ever had such a full heart that words seemed empty to try to describe it? That was me at Christmas. It was absolutely wonderful, being able to spend the time with my family. They are the best gifts by far. Well I didn't think I had any resolutions for the new year but I've had to rethink that position. Two things that stand out in my mind...changing course and running. And not those put together. It's hard to think about the new year without looking back over the past one and with that comes good and bad. Last year was a difficult one. I learned a few good lessons about being merciful to others..harder lesson to learn than I thought. I also spent most of the year in a spiritual desert. Too much dry without an oasis. I don't want this year to be a repeat. That's why I'm all about changing course. And I'm not talking about a dry that going to church will fix so don't go and think all that religious stuff on me. Shake yourself, stay with me. Church don't fix everything. And being married to the pastor doesn't fix it either. There are times, seasons, places that you will walk alone. Not without Christ but apart from other people. And no, I'm not through with this season. But I'm determined its not gonna take me another year to clear this hurdle. If I'm to learn nothing else from it, it will be that the merciful shall obtain mercy.
I'm also learning to open my heart to new friendships. I've had many through the years that were so depleting; I think it made me somewhat of a recluse toward new relationships. Shame on me right? I know, it IS a shame and I'm the one paying for it. One thing though, pressing the delete button on a few relationships has been good. I believe in reciprocal living and if the love and kindness I give can't be reciprocated, then I say hey, its been a journey and I'll see you when I see you. So I begin this new year with the hope of finding new friendships that will be uplifting for all involved. Oh and running. A passion that has been buried far too long. This year its gonna happen. Thanks to my husband for his great support and the quiet voice of the Holyspirit encouraging me; it's taking shape and becoming a reality in my life.
2012 is looking powerful and very promising. A welcome change. I leave this post with the words of an awesome song that I want to carry in my thoughts and prayers throughout the year:

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity -Hosanna, Hillsong United