Personal Prayers

I really desire your prayers. I've been deeply stirred in my spirit about some things I've wanted to do for years and haven't felt the avenues open to do them. I need direction from the Lord. I'm left with the feeling of being close to the end of a pregnancy and not knowing what to expect. No real answers...just anticipation, wonder and uncertainty. Faith walking is hard...not sometimes, always. My flesh fights it with more gusto than I knew I possessed. Its funny how things work with our christian walk. You think you're ready to do something so great for God and it doesn't happen (at least not the way you imagined). So you put those dreams aside, thinking its not meant to be. Then suddenly years later, something happens to awaken those dreams and you realize they haven't gone anywhere. They've just been buried, or maybe not even buried..maybe in a cocoon or womb. And now that they've been awakened, I'm uncertain about the dreams altogether. I wonder if I'm really ready or if I'm just on some unseen trip that leads back to the womb. Oh I hope you understand my dilemma. If not, then you KNOW to pray! If you do understand, you also KNOW to pray!