Did I miss something?

I guess a little confessing is in order. I've done that quite a bit today with God and I just wish I was done already but there's more to be dealt with I'm sure. My heart is an ugly place alot of times so it makes me nervous when God starts talking to me about it.
And sometimes I'm slow to see clues but this can't be a coincidence. First, I felt to read a portion of scripture in Haggai. It seemed a bit unclear to me, not something I wanted to blog about so I just flipped to Psalms thinking I'd find something more interesting. Turns out the scripture I flipped to was the very same subject matter as Haggai. Well, back to the confessing part.

I've given my life to ministry...felt God calling me a long time ago to forsake other plans I'd dreamed of in order to give myself to the work of the Lord. Alot of the time, its been a great struggle, although its felt like the best decision I'd ever made. As I look back over the past 7 years, so much has taken place in my life, and now it seems my heart has changed toward ministry. I was telling God today how I felt like I was cheating and being unfaithful to Him because I no longer had the same passion, the same zeal to work, nor the patience to weather more struggles within ministry. Struggles outside of ministry seems too much at times but I'm no idiot either. I know life happens and accept that life is full of hard times and good times and we learn to appreciate both. However, for the sake of the call, I've been long-suffering.

To simplify this: I'm tired. I've known it for a long time and have had moments of refreshing that pulled me through, in which I am so grateful to God. He continues to support me even though I want to bow out and exit stage right. Upon my talking with Him about this today, He said this:" Honor me and I will honor you."
(Haggai 2:15-23 and Psalms 132:1-5) I hope you decide to read these scriptures. I can't seem to get the words "Now give careful thought to this, from this day on..." God is eager to bless us. He does not wish for our lives to be hindered by sin and regrets. And He doesn't wait for us to clean up our act before He gives to us incredibly. I love Him so much for being faithful to me even when I've lost step with Him and forgot to turn around to look in His eyes for strength and wisdom.