I guess if I'm going to change something, it ought to be this year. Cause 2020 has already been a nightmare for most of us, which for me that means what have I got to lose? Before you read any further, be warned...you won't find everything you're looking for here. I can't deliver that but I can give you some honest opinions and feedback. And if you've stumbled on this site, I have no doubt it's for a reason. I don't say that in pride either; I say it with confidence in God's guidance for you. Looking back over this year so far (it's now October), I can't hardly remember the good things about it. It has been so piled with sorrow after sorrow. Not just for my family...it's been for most families. And that's just heartbreaking.
I don't know about you but I think I've questioned everything about myself at least a dozen times in the last 10 months, but probably more. I feel like I've run out of answers, for myself and Lord knows definitely for anyone else. It's like you have a handle on life so good and then out of nowhere, the sky falls. It has a way of leaving us feeling doubtful of everything and everyone. Sometimes life just makes no sense at all. I imagine we've all told ourselves to keep the faith, chin up, hang in there, fake it til you make it (I hate that phrase), go with the flow, and the famous...we're all in this together (why do I hate that phrase too?).
Are we all teetering on becoming bitter? Or have we leaned in that direction so long, we've finally toppled into the pit? Honestly, I feel the taste in my mouth sometimes, all the dissatisfaction welling up with the doubts. It's a real battle. I mean a REAL battle. So when will it get better? I have no idea! We still have 2 months left in this year. I can only pray that God will touch our hearts and help us see His greatness. Feeling so bad about so many things is overwhelming and painful and it makes it hard to see the good. I know you didn't come here for a sermon. No worries. But if you came for one take-away, this is it: God is real and He can handle our bitterness.